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!! [Apr. 13th, 2005|08:40 pm]
i_am_a_primate
[mood |happyhappy]
[music |Brendan Benson - "What I'm Looking For"]

Good news!! My passport and visa came back today - I'm now officially able to leave the country and work in the UK! Sweet!!

Last night we had a girls night, it was soooo much fun. Kat, Kestral_Keary and I went to the Whistling Walrus for a pig-out fest, it was sooo good. I also had my second 1.5 pint of beer ever! Yay! I think I'm going to fit right in when I get to London! Hahaha. We had ourselves a little adventure in Zellers afterwards, then came back to my place to watch Sex and the City episodes - I'm converting my friends All in all it was an awesome night - and a great way to celebrate the end of 2 exams!! My exams went really well though, especially art history. I wrote 14 pages about how classicism has been an ongoing theme in art throughout the past 2,500 years. Genetics went well too, except that our essay at the end pretty much required that we regurgitate our 10 short answer questions into one succinct long answer. I only need a 50% on the exam to get an A in the class, though, so I'm not too worried.

Today was good, had my last meeting with Cooper and Rodman, during which Kestral_Keary and I got major praise for our MAS work this year. I also have 2 more profs that have offered up references, bonus!! I also picked up my 4th yr paper/presentation mark - I got an A+ in the course! I'm really really really excited about that. The only major problem with my paper was that I didn't take enough of a theoretical stance. *shocking* I HATE theory!! I am so in the wrong discipline...Anyway, so I went to the gym too, which was nice cuase it was pretty dead in there. I've been home since then...slacking off...I should be doing my laundry and dishes and packing and stuff. My room is a mess and I haven't started doing anything with it. I'm leaving in like, 13 days...wow, ya, to the hour, even.

I think maybe I'm going to get started on some of that stuff now....enough procrastinating!!

p.s: Amanda, if you reading this and we haven't talked yet - let me know if we're still on for Friday!! I'm going to the travel clinic in the morning, but I'm free for the rest of the day/night!
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study day #1 [Apr. 10th, 2005|12:59 am]
i_am_a_primate
[mood |cheerfulcheerful]

What a day! I spent the whole day studying in the office with the girls, and I got quite a lot done, surprisingly ...but did a little too much socializing, I think. Ah well, I'm leaving soon, so that's how I qualify it with myself. At one point this afternoon I looked out the window and saw a wedding party down at the arch getting their photos taken...there were 7 bridesmaids and groomsmen, and the flower girl and ring bearer, in addition to the bride and groom. The pose they all did was awesome, I even took pics myself! It was so sweet and romantic, and such a beautiful day for it. Walked around campus lots today too, and in one case saw the guy that I had had a huge crush on for, well, the better part of this year. And he was holding another girl's hand. It was...weird. I didn't get the feeling I thought I would, no stomach-plumetting or urge to run away or any of that. But at the same time...I don't know. Maybe it was good closure for me. It was just...odd. But funny too, cause what he was wearing made me picture bringing him home to my parents. Man, they would not have been impressed, he is definitely not the type of guy they would want me with...maybe that's the appeal sometimes though. Who knows.

Anyway, so the night was good, again, lots of socializing, but some studying too. I have come to the conclusion that girls are weird. We talk about things guys would never ever think of bringing up with their friends.Makes for fun times and good memories though! We took a crapload of pictures today too, so I've now preserved some of those crazy memories :)

I'm really really going to miss it here. I hope not too much changes by the time I come back, and that I can keep in touch with my friends enough that I don't lose this bond, but it seems to be pretty damn strong, so I think it'll be okay.

16 days...
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school's out! [Apr. 7th, 2005|10:57 pm]
i_am_a_primate
[mood |exhaustedexhausted]

This week has flown by! Most of it was spent with the girls in Mills, working on my anotated bibliography. Amazingly, it was edited and printed out early the night before. Handing it in yesterday felt so great, it was my last assignment of my undergrad! Crazy! My afternoon was spent making food for my potluck and getting stuff done before leaving the country. Last night was soooo awesome - my Archaeology of Hunters and Foragers class was spent pigging out and watching "Ice Age" with a great little group of anthro people. Then we went to the Pheonix for some free beer :) "Half-pint Sandy" lives no more! haha. Anyway, it was good times. I'm really going to miss Mac. A lot :(

Today was just as great as yesterday, too. Exec meeting went well as usual. Then kestral_keary  finally won me over and I let her teach me how to play Euchre. Everyone who was left knew how to play, so it was a group effort in helping me learn, but Justin was my "conscience" thoughout...it turned out to be a pretty great game, and I wasn't half-bad either, me and Jim won! Woohoo! After a few different games we all left and I was off to Travelcuts to see Tim, my wonderful travel agent...I love that guy - we ate rockets and planned some of my train trips in Europe...needless to say, he rocks, and I'm returning tomorrow, I love going to Travelcuts, makes me so excited for leaving. Less than three weeks!! Woohoo!! Tim looked up my SWAP app too, and my UK Visa was accepted 2 days ago, so it should be here any day now from T.O. Sweeeet. After running into Mike I finally made my way home...who spends their whole day at school on their first day off of school?? Me, apparently...

Anyway, so that's been my week. It was crazy, but so much fun. So many things are coming up that I'm looking forward to! For now though, I think I am going to be heading to bed soon cause I'm pretty exhausted. Big day tomorrow - the studying begins!

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for sale! [Apr. 4th, 2005|10:14 pm]
i_am_a_primate

Hello all!

Okay...as of tomorrow I have just three weeks left in Hamilton! I'm extremely excited, but a little sad at the same time. I really do like it here and I've made so many amazing friends. Guess it's a good thing I'm not leaving permanently! I am leaving for a good enough length of time, though (one year), so I'm going to have to sell of a bunch of my stuff. So...if anyone is interested, or knows of someone who is interested, in any of the following things - let me know! :)

Single bed incl frame, mattress and boxspring $30
Tv stand $10
L-shaped desk with shelves $25
Computer Chair $10

**Fencers**

Electric Leon Paul Foil -- $50 (was bought in June 2003 and was used until Aug 2004, but only during summers and tourneys)
Fencing bag -- $15

Well...I'll update more life-type stuff later...but if anyone is interested in any of that, let me know!!

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Europe Europe Europe! [Mar. 13th, 2005|11:00 pm]
i_am_a_primate
[mood |excitedexcited]

Alright so after several requests...here's an update!

I have applied for SWAP (student work abroad program). I have applied, I have paid, I have put a seat on hold. I AM ACTUALLY DOING THIS!!!! I'm really really really excited, I thought I was going to pass out when Tim, my travel agent, handed me my SWAP package! Now I am getting ready to hand in all the forms so I can get my work visa all sorted out, and obviously, I need to book my ticket for sure. I'm also trying to begin planning my month of travel, like where I want to go and for how long. The first two weeks are easy because Kat will be with me sharing in the travels. My basic plan is this: Paris, Venice, Florence, Rome (incl. Vatican City and Pompeii), Greece, Istanbul (really want to go, but kinda scared), Budapest, Prague, Amsterdam, Paris (hanging out with my best friend on the streets of Paris! woohoo!), London. I'm thinking I'll be in London on May 31st. I think...Anyway, so I'm looking into all of that, trying to figure out what kind of Rail pass to get, and what hostels to book ahead.

All this and school! School sucks. I mean, it's good, but I'm really tired of it all. I can't wait to be done. Four years flew by, but now I'm drained and I just want it to be over! Soon though...soon.

Anthro Society is good, though same with school, getting drained.

I think I just really need to get away! Far away! Even that is filled with stress though. First, my mom wanted me to stop in Montreal on my way to visit my grandparents since I'll be gone for a year. That's very hard to do considering I'm going with Kat and all I will have with me is my backpack. Then today, I'm all of a sudden supposed to get rid of as much of my stuff as possible! Shit! I have a LOT of stuff! So I'm not sure what to do about that besides pawn all my stuff off on my friends :S Maybe once it's closer to moving time I'll post a list of all my stuff on here and if anyone wants anything....hm...good idea.

Well, I guess that's it for now. I'll try to post more often from now on, maybe it'll help keep me sane throughout the crazy weeks ahead of me!

G'night!
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hmmm [Feb. 23rd, 2005|10:33 pm]
i_am_a_primate
[mood |contemplativecontemplative]

I just got back from having coffee with Lindsey. It was fun, actually. Not too many weird silences, thinking about what to say next. I mean, I know a lot of the night was spent reminiscing (sp?) about high school and stuff. But is that really a bad thing? She's the only one that I can do that with. My friends in Ontario are fantastic, but they don't know anything about what high school was like for me. Lindz mentioned Justin Pederson. And at that very moment, memories flooded back - the bus strike, all those times we had to wait together because we carpooled...just so many memories that no one else could possibly understand because they have no idea who he is or what that entire thing was like. I mean, that's my past, who I was. Who I am. I've moved around so much that sometimes I feel like I'm so split up. There's "Montreal-Sandy", "Calgary-Sandy", "Ottawa-Sandy", and now "Hamilton-Sandy". Does anyone know all of these sides of me? Not really. I don't know if even I do. It's not like they're all that different, but they've all shaped me in so many ways, that sometimes I lose sight of who I really am. Life gets so busy that I just...forget to really think about myself. What do I really want from life? Who the hell am I? When I think about my life in Montreal, and then skip ahead to the present, so much has changed, and I wonder how things might have turned out had I never moved to begin with. I visit friends in Ottawa and wonder, why do I feel like I've changed so much? And have the changes been good? Is this what "growing up" is? Or am I just adapting to the changes around me...maybe they're even the same thing. It just makes me wonder...does everyone else feel like they've changed so drastically in the past 7 years? I feel like I've changed so much, that I don't even know if I know myself anymore. Does anyone know me? Or do they just know me at a certain part in my life? I mean, do my friends now actually know me, or just the Sandy of this year? Argh. See, this is why I need to go to Europe. And alone. I need time alone, far away, in a foreign land. I need to be challenged and faced with decisions without anyone else there to influence me. I need to be myself, and figure out who that person is. Maybe I'm having a crisis of identity right now. But I feel so overwhelmed by everything else going on in my life, and everyone else in my life, expecting me to be who they think I am.

The decision of where to live this summer is really throwing me off. It's like a tug of war. Honestly, my only solution is for all my Ontario friends to move out to Calgary. That's impossible, obviously. So what then? Where do I end up? Where will I be happiest?

And another thing, my mom wants me to work when I get to Europe, before travelling. Or she thinks that's what I should do anyway. I want to travel first, then work, then travel some more. I'm itching to see things, and experience things - I don't want to get tied down with a job right away! But I have this crazy urge to please her all the time...like, pressure, to do what she'll be happy with me doing. I hate that, but it's there.

Pressure. That's what I feel right now. I don't want school to end. As long as I continue going to Mac, decisions don't have to be made, no pressure is there because I'm doing what everyone expects me to be doing. But in 2 months, that's over. Oh God. Less than two months. *sigh*

I'm not even in the real world yet, and already I want to go back...
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update! [Feb. 22nd, 2005|03:59 pm]
i_am_a_primate
[mood |lazylazy]

Wow, it's been a really long time since I last posted!

It's reading week now, and I'm in Calgary. It's really great being home, I didn't get to spend much time here at Christmas. I thought it'd be really nice and relaxing, but it turns out the relaxing part is lacking. We got a puppy in January, and he is a handful! His name is Truman, and him and the cats don't get along well at all. Example - right now Basil is sitting right behind me, on my computer chair. Truman is on the floor playing, but the second he gets close Basil starts hissing and slapping him. This is not relaxing people!!!

Okay, enough about the zoo that is my house. Calgary is otherwise great. Today I met my mom downtown for lunch then did some shopping. I'm going back downtown on Thursday, and shopping again on Friday. Yay! In between I'm going to try and get some work done. I had very high hopes for a productive reading week, but I feel them slipping away.

I have a ton of MAS stuff to do, mainly beginning with updates and emails. Do you think I feel like doing any of that though? of couse not. Hope no one minds that this is all going to be coming a bit later than expected...

What else....oh, my parents want me to come back to Calgary for the summer. I kinda do miss it out here, but all my friends are in Ottawa/Toronto/Hamilton! I mean, I'm back for reading week and I'm seeing one friend tomorrow night for coffee, and that's it. I'd have to make new friends, and then I wouldn't get to see all my really really good friends this summer. :( I don't know what to do! Well, I guess all I really can do is wait to see where I get a job. Cause really, that's what will decide it all.

Guess that's it for now, nothing that exciting, I know. I have started planning my trip to Europe, which is REALLY exciting! Next Tuesday I'm going to sessions about backpacking in Europe and about SWAP, at Mac, I can't wait!

It's weird to think that this time next week I'll be back in Hamilton. It's nice taking a little break from reality every once and a while :)

I promise I'll update more often, for this week at least! Haha

G'bye!
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weird... [Jan. 31st, 2005|12:32 pm]
i_am_a_primate
[mood |anxiousanxious]

I haven't written in here in a while, mainly because things are so crazy busy that I just don't have time to try and recap it all. But I just had to get this out. I had a really unsettling dream last night. It was one of those dreams that was so...real. Where you wake up feeling like it actually happened. Which is ridiculous, but I really feel like my dream happened or that it's going to happen, or something. It's unsettling. I feel like I'm sitting on the edge of my seat now, and it was only a dream. *sigh*

Anyway, I better head out - gotta meet the girls for the gym and then dance class.

Bye for now!
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oh ya... [Jan. 22nd, 2005|11:09 pm]
i_am_a_primate

I just needed to add something about my day. When we finally left Mac to catch the bus to West End, the snow storm had hit and there were feet upon feet of snow, and it was still snowing. It was beatiful. The campus was empty, except for us, and we had to make our own path through the snow. We were slipping and sliding and screaming and laughing....I don't think I have laughed like that in a really long time. It was a real laugh, I laughed and jumped through the snow like I was 10 years old again.

For those few minutes I felt so care-free and happy. Not that I'm unhappy now, it was just such a...pure kind of happiness. Does that make sense? The world seemed to stop for a few moments while we trudged through that snow.

This probably sounds cheesy to you, but it was just so much fun and made me feel so...alive.

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MAS & the boy [Jan. 22nd, 2005|10:58 pm]
i_am_a_primate
[mood |disappointeddisappointed]

Where to start....

Today was both fantastic and disappointing. Fantastic because the MAS Student Symposium went soooo unbelievably well! We had way too much food, for sure, and one presenter couldn't come because of the weather (but we had 6 others). All the presentations were great! Two profs came, too, which was really cool. My speech was pretty good too, though corny I thought. So yay! Note to kestral_keary : Could you have made more difficult programs to put together??? I had to photocopy/fold/cut/tape 40 of those things, and it took me forever!!!!! :)

Disappointment....It was judgement day today. Today was my last day to decide where this thing was going, if anywhere, and it appears to be going nowhere. No more excuses, no more deadlines - I'm done. I'm ready to move on. And I'm determined to move on. I had my night of "wallowing" but that's it. The more I think about it, the more I know that I'm doing the right thing and the best thing for me. I have also learned from this whole experience, which is good. No more overthinking or overanalysing things. Or at least not as much. It's just not worth it when your expectations are dashed.

Unfortunately, in one hour, it's the 23rd of January. Not a pleasant day for me. Hasn't been for the past 2 years. I just want to get back into school next week. It's be a good weekend, but a hard one.

Anyway....that's my update for now. :)

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